do you know what sucks?

you know that you deserve to be treated better, you know that you shouldn’t be treated like a piece of shit, you know that you shouldn’t be used. you know that you are better off without them, and yet, you still choose to stay because you even though you are being treated like shit. it is better than being forgotten and not noticed at all.

it's sad

When you try to pick up a conversation with someone you haven’t talked to in a while and used to be close to, but you notice that they don’t make any effort to talk to you and just push you further away to the point where you realize that things have changed and it’d be probably better to let go. People come and go, sadly. Even the ones you thought you’d never lose.

Heart is crying. Can't stop the tears from flowing. Everything just seems so different now.. Things just don't turn out the way you wanted it to be, isn't it? What have i become.. Regrets piling up. Have i not done enough? My decisions led me to the wrong direction and really have no idea why i landed myself in such a state. Life sucks isn't it.. People in life come and go too, who really stays in the end? Despite your flaws and everything that makes you. Holding back those tears, running circles in my head. It's such a huge stepping stone in my life, my future. We all have to move on, but moving on is so hard. I just want to be happy. Someone to guide me, lead me on. When can i ever be happy again?