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I'm done being a good friend to those who don't deserve it. Everyday, I have unspoken feelings I keep in. Have you ever felt so alone that the presence of knowing someone will always be there for you is the equivalent to a foreign language. Have you ever felt so alone that the sound of silence is the only sound that soothes you. Have you ever felt so alone that you have no idea what to do when someone might care about you. Have you ever felt so alone that even when you’re around people, you still can’t feel their presence. Putting in so much effort into something, and get nothing back in return. That shit is painful. You feel as if you’re not as important to that person as they are to you. Thanks for making me feel like shit. 

Some Nights

"If she's amazing, she won't be easy. If she's easy, she won't be amazing. If she's worth it, you won't give up. If you give up, your not worth it..." Heart. Is. Empty. What have I been doing all my life? I don't know what I really wanted.. It's the loneliness that slowly chills and kills the heart in all of us. Has it always been this way?

Everything happens for a reason, you may not like the reason, but learn from that reason.

I act like I don't care, but deep inside I care more than you can ever think. Tired of constantly feeling like you never fit in. I never wanted to be a backup plan, always. It hurts more than it ever does, trust me. You wouldn't want to be in my shoes. Personally, I've learned not expect anything anymore. I'll believe it when i see it. But really, i’d rather be alone than to be with someone i’m not comfortable with.. It's good to have some space alone and think it through.. I guess all of these are parts of growing up. Anyway, Red Camp 9 was awesome!! No regrets for joining the camp. And.. lastly I've got my hair done! So lovin' it now with brown and a soft tone of pink hekekhek. 

" Never chase anyone. A person who appreciates you will walk with you."